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<p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">구순이신 우리 어머니는 요양원에 계신 지 이 년째이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">일하지 않으면 몸이 아프시다던 어머니는 평생을 복숭아</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">딸기 농사를 지으셨는데 여태껏 연골 주사 한번 맞지 않으셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">몸무게 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">50kg</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">을 넘긴 적이 없는 작은 체구였지만</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">(</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">지금은 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">33kg</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이시다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">) </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">남자 두 명의 일을 하신다고 이웃집 사람들은 말씀하셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">생전 처음으로 가족이 아닌 이들과 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">을 하시는 시골 노인이 적응하기가 그리 쉽지 않음은 당연할 것이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. ‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이라면 대 선배 격인 딸의 시선으로 보자면 우리 어머니는 내가 경험하는 딱 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">누구</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">를 닮으셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">속 불편한 말은 마음속에 넣어두지 못하시는 성미로 늘 나와 실랑이를 벌였는데 요양원에서도 마찬가지이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">하느님이 진짜 계시냐</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">에서 부터 시작해서 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">왜 내 기도는 안 들어주노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?” </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">하시더니</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">급기야는 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">기도 안 할란다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이제 기도하는 것도 힘들다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">까지 왔다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그래도 요양원에서 매일 올리는 일상의 사진을 보면 내가 만들어 준 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">기도 노트</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">를 보고 계실 때도 있는 것을 보니 기도를 안 하시는 것은 아닌 것 같아 안심이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">시골에서 동네 어르신들과 모이면 우스갯소리로 사람들을 즐겁게 하시는 어머니시기에 여기서도 옆 할머니들과 잘 지내시라고 말씀드리면</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, “</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">귀가 안 들리는 할마시들만 있는데 우째 이바구를 하노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">!”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">라며 격정을 내신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">몹시 답답하심을 왜 모르랴</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어느 날은 어르신들 잔칫상을 차리고 있는 선생님들께 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">뭐하노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">? </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">제사상 차리나</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">라고 물어보셨다는데 정말 어머니는 제사상인 줄 아셨을 것이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">한 번도 어머니께 그리 푸짐한 잔칫상을 차려드린 적이 없으니</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활에서는 꼭 누구 한 사람이 마음에 들지 않는다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그 사람이 없어진다고 얕은 평화가 오는 것이 아니다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어쩌면 그것이 공동체 생활의 법칙이 아닐까 싶다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어찌 나와 똑같은 생각과 습관을 지닌 이가 있을 수 있을까</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그렇다면 우리 각자의 개성을 선사하신 하느님께서 머쓱해 하실 일이지</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이런 공동체 생활에 대해 어머니께 열심히 설명해 드리지만</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이 생활이 마음에 들어 하지 않으신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. “</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">니는 행복하나</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">? </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">나는 안 그렇다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.” </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">시골 할머니의 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">행복</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">에 대한 고민이 내 마음을 무너지게 하기도 한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그래도 이제는 집에 가고 싶다고 말씀하지 않으신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이제는 당신이 담가놓은 된장이며 고추장</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">마당에 풀이 나 있지 않은지 등의 걱정은 잊어버리셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">다행인지 불행인지 잘 모르겠다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><div id="hwpEditorBoardContent" class="hwp_editor_board_content" data-hjsonver="1.0" data-jsonlen="11322"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span></div><br /><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">엄마와 나는 면회실에서 만남의 반 정도는 실랑이를 벌이는데</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이것이 나를 안도하게 한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">맑은 정신을 지니고 있음에 감사드리기 때문이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">우리 어머니의 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이 행복하게 막을 내릴 수 있기를 간절히 기도한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></span></span></span><br><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></span></span></span><br> <p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">구순이신 우리 어머니는 요양원에 계신 지 이 년째이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">일하지 않으면 몸이 아프시다던 어머니는 평생을 복숭아</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">딸기 농사를 지으셨는데 여태껏 연골 주사 한번 맞지 않으셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">몸무게 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">50kg</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">을 넘긴 적이 없는 작은 체구였지만</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">(</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">지금은 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">33kg</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이시다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">) </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">남자 두 명의 일을 하신다고 이웃집 사람들은 말씀하셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">생전 처음으로 가족이 아닌 이들과 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">을 하시는 시골 노인이 적응하기가 그리 쉽지 않음은 당연할 것이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. ‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이라면 대 선배 격인 딸의 시선으로 보자면 우리 어머니는 내가 경험하는 딱 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">누구</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">를 닮으셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">속 불편한 말은 마음속에 넣어두지 못하시는 성미로 늘 나와 실랑이를 벌였는데 요양원에서도 마찬가지이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">하느님이 진짜 계시냐</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">에서 부터 시작해서 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">왜 내 기도는 안 들어주노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?” </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">하시더니</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">급기야는 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">기도 안 할란다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이제 기도하는 것도 힘들다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">까지 왔다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그래도 요양원에서 매일 올리는 일상의 사진을 보면 내가 만들어 준 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">기도 노트</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">를 보고 계실 때도 있는 것을 보니 기도를 안 하시는 것은 아닌 것 같아 안심이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">시골에서 동네 어르신들과 모이면 우스갯소리로 사람들을 즐겁게 하시는 어머니시기에 여기서도 옆 할머니들과 잘 지내시라고 말씀드리면</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, “</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">귀가 안 들리는 할마시들만 있는데 우째 이바구를 하노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">!”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">라며 격정을 내신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">몹시 답답하심을 왜 모르랴</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어느 날은 어르신들 잔칫상을 차리고 있는 선생님들께 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">“</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">뭐하노</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">? </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">제사상 차리나</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">?”</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">라고 물어보셨다는데 정말 어머니는 제사상인 줄 아셨을 것이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">한 번도 어머니께 그리 푸짐한 잔칫상을 차려드린 적이 없으니</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활에서는 꼭 누구 한 사람이 마음에 들지 않는다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그 사람이 없어진다고 얕은 평화가 오는 것이 아니다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어쩌면 그것이 공동체 생활의 법칙이 아닐까 싶다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">어찌 나와 똑같은 생각과 습관을 지닌 이가 있을 수 있을까</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그렇다면 우리 각자의 개성을 선사하신 하느님께서 머쓱해 하실 일이지</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이런 공동체 생활에 대해 어머니께 열심히 설명해 드리지만</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이 생활이 마음에 들어 하지 않으신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. “</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">니는 행복하나</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">? </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">나는 안 그렇다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.” </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">시골 할머니의 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">행복</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">에 대한 고민이 내 마음을 무너지게 하기도 한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">그래도 이제는 집에 가고 싶다고 말씀하지 않으신다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이제는 당신이 담가놓은 된장이며 고추장</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">마당에 풀이 나 있지 않은지 등의 걱정은 잊어버리셨다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">다행인지 불행인지 잘 모르겠다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"> </span></span></span><br><div id="hwpEditorBoardContent" class="hwp_editor_board_content" data-hjsonver="1.0" data-jsonlen="11322"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"></span></span></div><br /><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">엄마와 나는 면회실에서 만남의 반 정도는 실랑이를 벌이는데</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">, </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이것이 나를 안도하게 한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">맑은 정신을 지니고 있음에 감사드리기 때문이다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">. </span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">우리 어머니의 </span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">‘</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">공동체 생활</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">’</span></span></span></span><span style="font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">이 행복하게 막을 내릴 수 있기를 간절히 기도한다</span></span></span></span><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;">.</span></span></span></span><br><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></span></span></span><br><p class="0" style="mso-pagination:none;text-autospace:none;mso-padding-alt:0pt 0pt 0pt 0pt;"><span lang="EN-US" style="mso-fareast-font-family:함초롬바탕;mso-font-width:100%;letter-spacing:0pt;mso-text-raise:0pt;"><span style="font-family: 돋움, dotum;"><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-size: 16pt;"><br /></span></span></span></span><br>

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